I’m staring at a blank page. It is January 13, 2013. My life is turning out to be not exactly what I expected. So it’s time to set some goals. This is going to be a year of change. What is my ultimate goal? Peace. Peace of mind and peace in my heart. A feeling of calm. No more anxiety. No more feeling like my head is going to explode from the stress. I want to breathe again. So here is what I am going to do…
Get myself through the first week of June—take my job in stride and do the best I can so that I can leave a good impression. And then resign and leave the stress behind. Eight years has been enough. My title will no longer be “middle school English teacher”. It will be whatever I want it to be.
Keep saving money--$500 a month, $10,000 by September 1st. So that I can turn the page and have a cushion in order to look for and work in a job that doesn’t cause me anxiety and take away my free time, that doesn’t leave me completely drained at the end of the day. Something that lets me enjoy my life again.
Go back to school and get health insurance through UTSA. Finish my master’s degree by December 2014.
Start a family—it’s time to do it already. Ready or not, here it comes.
Get healthy and stay healthy—exercise 3-4 times a week. Go to acupuncture. Get realigned. Eat right for my body. Get out and get some fresh air a couple times a week. Dance at least once a week.
Pray. Meditate. Everyday. Nothing and no one can harm me. I am surrounded by white light.
Nurture friendships. Laugh.
Enjoy my time with Imad and be the best wife I can be. Love.
I must find peace.
“What’s the use of running if you’re not on the right road?”….it’s time to get back on the right road again.