I’m staring
at a blank page. It is January 13, 2013.
My life is turning out to be not exactly what I expected. So it’s time
to set some goals. This is going to be a year of change. What is my ultimate goal? Peace.
Peace of mind and peace in my heart.
A feeling of calm. No more
anxiety. No more feeling like my head is
going to explode from the stress. I want
to breathe again. So here is what I am
going to do…
Get myself
through the first week of June—take my job in stride and do the best I can so
that I can leave a good impression. And
then resign and leave the stress behind. Eight years has been enough. My title will no longer be “middle school
English teacher”. It will be whatever I want it to be.
Keep saving
money--$500 a month, $10,000 by September 1st. So that I can turn the page and have a
cushion in order to look for and work in a job that doesn’t cause me anxiety
and take away my free time, that doesn’t leave me completely drained at the end
of the day. Something that lets me enjoy my life again.
Go back to
school and get health insurance through UTSA.
Finish my master’s degree by December 2014.
Start a
family—it’s time to do it already. Ready
or not, here it comes.
Get healthy
and stay healthy—exercise 3-4 times a week.
Go to acupuncture. Get
realigned. Eat right for my body. Get out and get some fresh air a couple times
a week. Dance at least once a week.
Pray.
Meditate. Everyday. Nothing and no one can harm me. I am surrounded by white light.
Nurture
friendships. Laugh.
Enjoy my
time with Imad and be the best wife I can be. Love.
Travel
again.
I must find
peace.
“What’s the use of
running if you’re not on the right road?”….it’s time to get back on the right
road again.